I really like Court. I'm not sure what to do about him though. I'm not even sure what IS going on between us. Are we "seeing each other"? are we just friends? I'm not sure. I usually define seeing someone as doing things with that person other than with your usual group of friends, and both people are attracted to each other. I always hang out with Court- but with his friends. Yet, I don't really know any of them... I wonder...

I wish I was tight with some of his friends. I've been getting pretty close to Johnny- but we only talk of politics and such. I don't want to bring up Court because it was Johnny who told Brandon, "Tina and Court?...That's not good. She's going to end up getting hurt." A very cryptic statement that is making my stomach churl.

I know I'm going away in September, so maybe it's not worth even spending the time getting closer to Court. Maybe he feels this way too. Gosh, I just wish I knew what he felt/wanted! I like him sooo much. I think about him constantly too. Darn him and his cuteness.

Court's so cute and nice... But does he even like me? Perhaps I should wait til he calls me before I pursue this thought. When I left his house on Saturday, he walked me to his door and all shyly was asking me when I was available this week and said he would call me. He hasn't called yet. Ah, tomorrow is Wednesday! I almost want to suck it up and call him... because I'm soo busy this week. The only days I could possibly do something would be Thursday or Saturday night, as my schedule goes as follows:

Wed: Exam, Work

Thurs: Study for World Issues Exam

Fri: Exam, Relay for Life

Sat: Gary's party

Sun: Work

Mon: Economics exam, work

Tues: Grad dance!

Wed: Grad recovery

thurs: Grad commencement

Fri: Leave for trip to ottawa til July 1st!

Holy cow! But does it seem like the school year went further into the summer this year? I mean, when in the world will my summer start?! Not to mention this CRAPPY weather... Boo whoo... Usually I'm swimming at camp by this time.

Oh darn. I like Court so much. I wish we hadn't been so wasted that first night we made-out. lol. He said he wished we had made-out when we were sober, but he was drunk at the time. He's so adorable though. Darn Megan. I hope he doesn't still like her. She's so ditzy. LIKE ME COURT! PLEASE!

Well, I'll be crossing my fingers that Court calls. If not, maybe I will call him on Thursday. My goal is to get to do something with him alone, sans his posse of friends. I think, then, I will be more comfortable and less shy around him. I will also be able to measure his intentions...

I decided to take a brief hiatus from the world of livejournal. Luckily, I have this comfy pita for a vacation getaway. Here, a place with no 'friend' links or crazy local stalkers, I can open up- jot things down. Well, technically there are only two days left of highschool. Unfortunately, I have a ten page economics essay due tomorrow, which I have yet to start. Once that has been turned in, however, I think I will feel relaxed and more excited for the end of my highschool career. I have an exam Wednesday, Friday, and Monday morning- meaning I can't really stay out late any nights this week :( There's a student senate meeting tomorrow, I think. *rolls eyes* Last night, I was supposed to volunteer at Benny Birches with Alexandra 6-8. However, since she is bed-ridden (poor girl :(- i miss her!), I kidnapped Jennesia to come and help me serve smelly beef on a bun. Lucky us, our booth was right next the stage, so we got to listen to a good hour of eryn hull! yes! *rolls eyes...again* After a guy from my church sang, and he was really awesome. I think Jennesia has a crush on him, as she was quite upset looking when I told her that he has a son and wife (much like Taylor Hanson...pity, pity). No one came to replace Jennesia and I at 8, when our shift was over. So, we said we had to leave for a play rehershal... We couldn't find Jess or Sean, who we were meeting there, so we just left. Jennesia was supposed to be meeting up with Kyle later that night, and I really had nothing to do :(... Jennesia suggested I phone Court. I was too nervous, so I got her too. Then, when he came to the phone- I hung up! I was so scared. So Jennesia phoned back again, and I mustered the courage to say "hi...er...what's up?" Court then invited me to come see a movie with him and his friends. Jennesia convinced that I had to go. She did my make-up (wow, my eyelashes were long) and my hair... tbc...
*~*~*Sunday, June 13, 2004 an extraordinary correspondence04:42 p.m.*~*~*~